my abandon closet.....

Its been a long long time since i last updated my blog. Alot of things happened recently. Good and bad.

Well, first of all I quit from MS POST and gonna continue my study real soon on the 7th of June. Hahaha i know, quitting 2 months earlier is really a bad bad choice. However, I manage to divide my time to sleep.. Hell yea, ever since I work there I always have been sleepless, now its my time to patch it back..

I started back to work for gloria jeans coffee on the 2nd of april and den quit after four days of working. hahaha.... Pooi Sin got a lil insecure when she learn Irene came over quite daily. However, I am okay wif it as me myself dun feel the enviroment anymore. Manage to make Pooi Sin dream a reality before I quit, and that is to brew a cup of my favourite coffee for her. Althougt Meow got to drink the very first cup of my hot latte and u got up to be the second. That doesnt mean I love U less then Meow... Hahahaha....

And yup, here I am... Shaking legs at home... JOBLESS~ *laugh out loud* Cant believe this is happening to me. Just got myself a new laptop... MSI taiwan brand... the graphic card is superb!!! and it only cost me.. 1.7k... not bad of a price eh? got it from PC fair.

Days were getting lesser, my new zealand visa? "APPROVED"!!!!! which means I am leaving to New Z on the end of August.. probably before 30th... Man, I am excited, happy however a lil confuse and sad.... I mean leaving Malaysia is okay. Leaving home is not a problem... but then leaving the FOOD?MOM, SIS and MY DOG!!!!!??? tht is a big problem.. and of cos not to forget my dearest frens...

Angeline... I think I am gonna miss u much.. So I have planned before going to New Z, I am coming back for a visit..


Wait for ME~~

beneath dark shades.....

I dunno how things turns out to be... just somehow her grief makes me feel a lil useless, annoyed and upset. i do not noe ways to convince her and to console her anymore. after yesterday, i do not knw why i started to act very coldly no matter to her or to other ppl...

i hate wen i have this feelings... i just dun feel like doing anything... why? when a kid falls they know how to advice us to stand back up tall and walk? but why wen thy fall its like the end of the world? why cant they act the way they talk? everything has alot of ways out.... i just dun understand... really dun understand... or perhaps i refuse to? i rather to stay clean like a child...

u kept saying i am cold, i guess tht is the way i protect myself by getting hurt again..

for the first few months, things can get pretty messed up as she was there.. all i can do is just sit in the corner waiting for ur call... at that moment if time, i felt like as if i was the third party... wen in the case you all have been separated for a year. that feeling i can never imagine i wen thru it. i remembered every night i was crying thinking if i should just forget about everything... indeed, as wert u told me, everything is much better now. but there are still times wen i felt insecure.

now, things happened again, i ever guessed that its causes from"green". how can u be defeated that easily? and there u hurted me again yesterday left me feeling useless and helpless... which u makes me felt completely hopeless.. no one can advise u to stand up strong if its not from urself. i cant guide u if u dun listen and accept it. however, no matter wert i ca only be thr to stand by u wen u fall to help u to stand back up.. but if u dun give me ur hand, how am i to help?

think about it......

As Far As I Concern, but yet its a Lil I know.

I am suppose to still be on the bed, and not on9 and doing blogging. I just somehow couldnt manage to go back to sleep right now, despite I am half awake and half asleep in front of the PC right now.

i have been thinking, thinking hard lately. what i have done wif the entire time I had for this 22 years.. Its a long road, but short time. on how much we have grow and yet, how little we know and we learn.

Its freaking me out sometimes wen i look back on the things i have been thru, how little loved I earned, how failure I was. however, everything happens for a reason. Not blaming or grinning over it. Just somehow felt blessed. Least its over and I have a better life now and ahead.

People can be immature at times, freaked and confused, but yet one day they will awake and found em' selves lying on the pace of green green grass, allowing the flow of stream wash and ease them away. That is wen, u grow up and moved on from junks.

Yesterday, Pooi Sin let me read something which freaked me out. Haiz, I am not sure if I should feel at ease. Somehow it bothers me. Alot things happened recently, I do not know how to explain. Worse of it is our job affecting us eh? Do u agree hardly on this? U finished work yesterday at 2am and now? U already in the office. meanwhile, i am at home doing nothing.

NO worries, few more months. I am not gonna work there anymore. Then we can arrange time to kai kai lor. Grandma is coming back from USA at OCT. I will be homeless again!!!! I am sure she is gonna sleep in my room. I miss grandma!!! WELCOME BACK!!! but grandma is too old to cook a dy. I dun wan them to cook for me cos i dun wan them to feel tired. Planning wen grandma is around den I can go back Penang bring Bopo down also lo.... Two OLD WOMAN should get together and relax. They have been tiring almost their entire life. Its time for them to rest and relax. Let this grand daughter serve u both. Weeeeeee~ that time can ask hubby bring me go buy food to cook. I shall prepare dinner!!! muahahahaha * evil laughter* CHEF CASS! presenting international food feast!!! Anyone wants to join??

Meanwhile, looking forward for Phui Leng to drop to KL, she says she wanted to do CNY shopphing in KL. lolx. I terbalik pulak. I wanted to do my shopping in Penang. I miss PENANG!!!

Wan to go back to bed and sleep,

allious,

Cass

Tiger here i come

Well, this year i am praying for a good year of health. as i have been falling sick 3 weeks str8 this month. however i am lucky enuf i have hubby accompany me.. hmmm.... thank you thank you

I am planning going back to school, kinda wanna rest for a year or so before i really get my arse back to business.. kinda tired holding tight to it...

i dun care i wanna study hard 1st...

hais, looking back the time i have been wasted. well, its time to run

GONNA FACE THE DAMN BRAND NEW YEAR OF TIGER WITH FULL ENERGY!!!!!!!!

yesh! i can do it!

Random Crap's

Last night having a pack schedule, 10 am to 6 pm working... however, i woke up late and was late to work.. so i reached thr around 11.15am finish work around 7 pm.. went to san and ate salmon sashimi, 2 piece of ikura, cawanmushi, and tendon.. ordered a glass of lemon juice. after dinner, I actually planned to go gym.. However, my back kept on aching till i cant stand straight..hmmm *sobbies* so i change my mind decided to go shopphing!!!!! weeee~ however, i dunno why i ended up in GYM. muahahaha... so i went on in gym around 1 and half hour... cal and evin came over and pick me up to Quattro... Haiyo, my back pain till i cant even dance just sit and move only...

I drank Coke and around 3 am hubby came and pick me up. went JLN PASAR for porrigde and dim sum.. yum yum~~ work at 11 am to 7 pm, GYM at 8 to 9.30pm and clubbing 11 to 3 am.... muahahaha...

Today woke up and den i keep on wanting huby to hug me tight tight.. hmm... wen to shower and went out at 3 pm.. wen for nando's after that wen to poke poke my back.. he make me feel like a helpless child. he grab me and bend me over and all i can hear is my bone... "crack..crack..." but now I am feeling better..

Hmmm... thought of going to KTV tonight.. but then if wait for Meow den will be pretty late.. Lazy to go out already, now waiting for hubby to come over and fetch me home to cheras~ weeee~~~

End of the YEAR of mooooo~

It comes to an end so soon.. 2009 is coming to an end... alot of things past within this year... hmmm...

how i grow older and wiser at work. how i got tired and restless from work. hmm, how i am in relationship and out. how i have finally let go of Irene. hmm, from trip to Australia and now I am looking forward for Bali and yeap Gold Coast..

I know Pooi Sin wanted to bring me to Bali so much. I know she loves the environment there. But then you dun have to. Well, I knw ur situation and how u wanted to give me the best. Knowing that u tried I already feel happy and I know u love me so.

U know, I never really introduce people to my mom letting her know tht is the person i am wif. Dear, u are 1st. *wink* and I am glad mom approve us.. weeee...

Its been the 1st time where no one is playing in the game of catch.. I dint chase u nor u chase me... muahahaha. just without knowing we are already being together and loving each other. Its funny to learn how we come together, but then I will treasure this moment forever. Cos no one makes me feel this way before. and I hope this gonna be the last...

Cheah Pooi Sin,

I am loving u each and everyday. lesser than tomoro but more than yesterday...muakssss

Neglected Blog, here i come!

for some reason i am too busy till i neglected my blog for a few months i believe? alot of things happened for some reason....

i rush MTV (muzik aktif) and its almost done...took a trip to Melbourne on the 22nd of Sept.

i will upload pictures and slowly explain and brief my each day activities soon, wen i have time to sit and really blog...

Hmm, beside the trip, yup broke up wif yuki. For some reason, i am really nt into this type of relationships.. i knw i hurt her. but its better then dragging her down the road and i found tht v never did understand each other.v never had the chance and time to.i can never get wert is on ur mind and u can nvr get mine too. perhaps, v shouldnt have started in the 1st place. should have just remains frens. tht would be better eh? well, of cos hoping and wishing she will be ready to accept me as a fren wen she meet me up next time. well, if thr is chances la...

I started to bleed again, hahax! but however, i felt much better wen i dun need to rely on meicine to go to sleep anymore. Pooi Sin kept being there to watch me and make sure i go to sleep before she does. hahax and den she complaint i snores!!!! eh hello~ u snore the loudest ok??!!!! none of us in the house can beat u!!!

I am glad she is always there beside me, smiling no matter wert mood i am into, no matter wert difficulties is buzzing around in and out my head. she always greet me wif a smile. makes me feel comfortable and loved. how can anyone replace the place of u in my heart? never know how important u meant to me.. weeee~ love u so much!

u raise me up~so i can stand on mountain, u raise me up so i can walk on stormy seas, i am strong wen i am on ur shoulders...u gave me strength to walk on rocky roads. held my hand wen things gets tough, smile at me wen i cried like a baby, watch me sleep wen i am insecure and nt at ease. how can i ever repay u?

hmmm.... talking about her now i am waiting for her to come back and bring me supper!!!!!! different shift, so sad!!!!!

now i wan to go shower, tomoro need to go to work again!!!!! i need some rest leh!!!!! 2 weeks down! no rest!