As Far As I Concern, but yet its a Lil I know.

I am suppose to still be on the bed, and not on9 and doing blogging. I just somehow couldnt manage to go back to sleep right now, despite I am half awake and half asleep in front of the PC right now.

i have been thinking, thinking hard lately. what i have done wif the entire time I had for this 22 years.. Its a long road, but short time. on how much we have grow and yet, how little we know and we learn.

Its freaking me out sometimes wen i look back on the things i have been thru, how little loved I earned, how failure I was. however, everything happens for a reason. Not blaming or grinning over it. Just somehow felt blessed. Least its over and I have a better life now and ahead.

People can be immature at times, freaked and confused, but yet one day they will awake and found em' selves lying on the pace of green green grass, allowing the flow of stream wash and ease them away. That is wen, u grow up and moved on from junks.

Yesterday, Pooi Sin let me read something which freaked me out. Haiz, I am not sure if I should feel at ease. Somehow it bothers me. Alot things happened recently, I do not know how to explain. Worse of it is our job affecting us eh? Do u agree hardly on this? U finished work yesterday at 2am and now? U already in the office. meanwhile, i am at home doing nothing.

NO worries, few more months. I am not gonna work there anymore. Then we can arrange time to kai kai lor. Grandma is coming back from USA at OCT. I will be homeless again!!!! I am sure she is gonna sleep in my room. I miss grandma!!! WELCOME BACK!!! but grandma is too old to cook a dy. I dun wan them to cook for me cos i dun wan them to feel tired. Planning wen grandma is around den I can go back Penang bring Bopo down also lo.... Two OLD WOMAN should get together and relax. They have been tiring almost their entire life. Its time for them to rest and relax. Let this grand daughter serve u both. Weeeeeee~ that time can ask hubby bring me go buy food to cook. I shall prepare dinner!!! muahahahaha * evil laughter* CHEF CASS! presenting international food feast!!! Anyone wants to join??

Meanwhile, looking forward for Phui Leng to drop to KL, she says she wanted to do CNY shopphing in KL. lolx. I terbalik pulak. I wanted to do my shopping in Penang. I miss PENANG!!!

Wan to go back to bed and sleep,

allious,

Cass

Tiger here i come

Well, this year i am praying for a good year of health. as i have been falling sick 3 weeks str8 this month. however i am lucky enuf i have hubby accompany me.. hmmm.... thank you thank you

I am planning going back to school, kinda wanna rest for a year or so before i really get my arse back to business.. kinda tired holding tight to it...

i dun care i wanna study hard 1st...

hais, looking back the time i have been wasted. well, its time to run

GONNA FACE THE DAMN BRAND NEW YEAR OF TIGER WITH FULL ENERGY!!!!!!!!

yesh! i can do it!

Random Crap's

Last night having a pack schedule, 10 am to 6 pm working... however, i woke up late and was late to work.. so i reached thr around 11.15am finish work around 7 pm.. went to san and ate salmon sashimi, 2 piece of ikura, cawanmushi, and tendon.. ordered a glass of lemon juice. after dinner, I actually planned to go gym.. However, my back kept on aching till i cant stand straight..hmmm *sobbies* so i change my mind decided to go shopphing!!!!! weeee~ however, i dunno why i ended up in GYM. muahahaha... so i went on in gym around 1 and half hour... cal and evin came over and pick me up to Quattro... Haiyo, my back pain till i cant even dance just sit and move only...

I drank Coke and around 3 am hubby came and pick me up. went JLN PASAR for porrigde and dim sum.. yum yum~~ work at 11 am to 7 pm, GYM at 8 to 9.30pm and clubbing 11 to 3 am.... muahahaha...

Today woke up and den i keep on wanting huby to hug me tight tight.. hmm... wen to shower and went out at 3 pm.. wen for nando's after that wen to poke poke my back.. he make me feel like a helpless child. he grab me and bend me over and all i can hear is my bone... "crack..crack..." but now I am feeling better..

Hmmm... thought of going to KTV tonight.. but then if wait for Meow den will be pretty late.. Lazy to go out already, now waiting for hubby to come over and fetch me home to cheras~ weeee~~~

End of the YEAR of mooooo~

It comes to an end so soon.. 2009 is coming to an end... alot of things past within this year... hmmm...

how i grow older and wiser at work. how i got tired and restless from work. hmm, how i am in relationship and out. how i have finally let go of Irene. hmm, from trip to Australia and now I am looking forward for Bali and yeap Gold Coast..

I know Pooi Sin wanted to bring me to Bali so much. I know she loves the environment there. But then you dun have to. Well, I knw ur situation and how u wanted to give me the best. Knowing that u tried I already feel happy and I know u love me so.

U know, I never really introduce people to my mom letting her know tht is the person i am wif. Dear, u are 1st. *wink* and I am glad mom approve us.. weeee...

Its been the 1st time where no one is playing in the game of catch.. I dint chase u nor u chase me... muahahaha. just without knowing we are already being together and loving each other. Its funny to learn how we come together, but then I will treasure this moment forever. Cos no one makes me feel this way before. and I hope this gonna be the last...

Cheah Pooi Sin,

I am loving u each and everyday. lesser than tomoro but more than yesterday...muakssss

Neglected Blog, here i come!

for some reason i am too busy till i neglected my blog for a few months i believe? alot of things happened for some reason....

i rush MTV (muzik aktif) and its almost done...took a trip to Melbourne on the 22nd of Sept.

i will upload pictures and slowly explain and brief my each day activities soon, wen i have time to sit and really blog...

Hmm, beside the trip, yup broke up wif yuki. For some reason, i am really nt into this type of relationships.. i knw i hurt her. but its better then dragging her down the road and i found tht v never did understand each other.v never had the chance and time to.i can never get wert is on ur mind and u can nvr get mine too. perhaps, v shouldnt have started in the 1st place. should have just remains frens. tht would be better eh? well, of cos hoping and wishing she will be ready to accept me as a fren wen she meet me up next time. well, if thr is chances la...

I started to bleed again, hahax! but however, i felt much better wen i dun need to rely on meicine to go to sleep anymore. Pooi Sin kept being there to watch me and make sure i go to sleep before she does. hahax and den she complaint i snores!!!! eh hello~ u snore the loudest ok??!!!! none of us in the house can beat u!!!

I am glad she is always there beside me, smiling no matter wert mood i am into, no matter wert difficulties is buzzing around in and out my head. she always greet me wif a smile. makes me feel comfortable and loved. how can anyone replace the place of u in my heart? never know how important u meant to me.. weeee~ love u so much!

u raise me up~so i can stand on mountain, u raise me up so i can walk on stormy seas, i am strong wen i am on ur shoulders...u gave me strength to walk on rocky roads. held my hand wen things gets tough, smile at me wen i cried like a baby, watch me sleep wen i am insecure and nt at ease. how can i ever repay u?

hmmm.... talking about her now i am waiting for her to come back and bring me supper!!!!!! different shift, so sad!!!!!

now i wan to go shower, tomoro need to go to work again!!!!! i need some rest leh!!!!! 2 weeks down! no rest!

how much longer?

How much longer can a person stand due to her failure? fail to love someone and to get love in return? How much longer can sacrifices be make by a side and not both? how much longer will she get sick of it, knowing no matter how much she has sacrifices, its only empty hope she is getting?

It started wen the day they were together till the very end of it. or should i say its not the end yet? how can it be the end wen she struggle hard to let the relationship works out? she meet her today, and have a few moment wif her. she notice the ring that she wore on her hand isnt thr.. so izzit true she is not lying to her.. no one knows.. how can anyone knows wen their relationship in underground and cannot be seen in the crowd.. pardon me for saying not even, wen thy are alone in public... so how much longer will only u be awake? pardon me for saying, u refuse to let her go. but izzit true she is that important to u? if half of u urself dun trust her enuff... how deep is ur love for her u claime u r into her?

u work that hard.. yet u gave out ur money to her that easily.. i know that few hundreds isnt a big amount.. but u can do so much more wif it.. u claime u love her... but how much she loves u in return.. u know it.. but yet u refuse to wake up.. this is nightmare, not a sweet dream nor fairytales... nothing will comes with happy ending always...

u dun have much time to more.. make up ur mind.. if she is gonna be the love of ur life..

signing off,
ur shadow...

The worst or The Best?

Well, yesterday morning in the worst day ever... My car engine K.O.. something about the gear.. thy tune my engine too high up. so i was driving without pressing anything.. hmmm.... den later on at noon, I got involved in an accident.. a minor one.. but major damage to my car. cause my car door can be open.. so i have to climb from the other door to enter my car. swt... Tht stupiak indian guy reverse n den bang me... yet no apologise but then he scolded me. say why i park thr. idiot!!!! how cn u claim i park wen my engine isnt off and i dint even get down from my car yet.. arsehole!

later on, everything get smoother... went for a movie, den go shopping... later on at 7 pm! *wink * lucky me... get to shop for shower cap, moon cake and bread. aiyo thy look so cute plus delicious! yummy..

weeeeeeee.....

If loving u is about giving the whole soul of mine.. I am willing to do it.. I wouldnt climb the highest mountain nor swim the deepest ocean...But I will fly and carve ur name out of clouds to let people know ur name, the love of my life. I will explore the deepest cave till the center of the earth to burried my heart the and shall remain untouched from no others as U have touched mine and no one else would be able to tk the place but u..

I do love u very mush..u the love of my life.