she is sad and I am heart broken

This is a story about a gal who named “Y”. after all she misses her so much. how in love could she be. to be wif someone who is older den her and most important tht gal is str8.

She honestly feel like crying out wen “K” finally nodded yes and though the relationship is being underground. But “Y” never feel ever happier den the way she is now. I can see tht spark in her eyes. She wakes up every morning, look into the mirror and tell herself to work harder everyday. she wants to earn more and more money to the extend whr she could buy anything to please “K”.

though “K” never did ask much, but then “Y” everyday taking sending her lunch as an excuse jst to see her lil angel for a few mins. wen she finally tk her guts to ask “K” did she loves her… “K” gave her a positive answer which “Y” long to hear for so long. she never knws tht answer kept her smiling thru the rain.

but then happy moment never always thr for her. “K” finally gives “Y” a cold shoulder again. “Y” did not knw where she did wrong.. She was hoping “K” would tell her.. but as usual, thr will be no reply.how can anything b so wrong wen they are okay a day ago..

“K” do u knw, she missed u alot till the extend where she dun feel like eating nor sleeping and keeping herself awake to receive msges from u.. she really loves u. miss u.

signing off,

Genesis

Wen Love is blind....

today they finally sat and she put all her guts and ask her if she is serious about it. and she just nodded. izzit a yes or she nodded jst for fun. well of cos i am happy for her if tht lady she loves finally agree even despite its for a wrong reason... but how wrong cn it be.. to be wif the woman she loves...

i wishes her, happiness and of cos treasure it cos i knw it will definally be a very short moment. but as long as thy are happy in the short momentum den i guess everything will be alright eh?

if only "K" knws tht she really loves her and willing to do everything for her.. I hope "K" doesnt tk her for granted. Seriously, i bet she don wan 2 fall back and hurt herself deeper then she is nw. My fren, I am happy u found happiness which u think it perhaps its true. but then in the reality, its still for a wrong reason. but yet i knw, As long u get the chance to be by her side u are satisfied enuf.

"Y" i hope u r happy as ever as nw "K" nodded yes. but then wert status of relationship r u guys in?? faster make it clear ok. . but then of cos one step at a time... one by one... things tht come too fast go away fast too.. so tk it slow may it will last longer or in fact forever....

to u "K"... "Y" loves u alot... can u hear her... she really loves u alot. ^.^

ishk

NOW ITS ALMOST 6 AM and i am nt feeling sleepy le.... how... but then some how i am feeling tired.

how r? my brain cant think anymore le.. i will just upload pictures la.. muahahahaha.

i like infact love my white sweater. hahaha..

somehow i jst read someone's blog. hais... cmon is the past i dunno why still ppl wan2 tk tht and argue. v have not done anything... wert else ppl accusing me ONE NIGHT STAND wif her? MY GOD this is so foolish!

arghhh... watever la, its ppl mouth i knw i dint do it tht is fine already. i do no wrong wert else on harm...

here is the plan.....

well, dear i dunno if u will complain or nt about the acco... but then i only wish to tell u. tht on tht day we reach thr is alot travellers going to langkawi. so we got out of choices... hoping u will be patience ok or nt??

got a chalet. i found it pretty interesting... very the kampung feel and its right on the beach. i dunno i find kampung houses very very relaxing.. well, bt then of cos the room is wif air cond.. so izzit ok for u?

well, here is the plan and budget...

v r going to langkawi on the 25th night which means v will reach thr at 26th morning.

i will help u on the bus tickets so u dun have to worry about thr.

the chalet is 70 per night. so means will be 140 for 2 nights. and divide and be shared by two of us... hmmm.... and the car will be 60 for a day which means 120 for the whole trip and will be only 30 per person. so thr goes a 100. oh ya forgot about the ferry fees wen v reach. i think its 15...so both way for thru n fore will be 30. total amount so far = 130

weeeeeee

so a budget of 250 is more then enuff lorr
hahaha

hmmm... i guess i will see u on 25th noon? v go kai kai ler... den after tht, go trip!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Finally.....

I realised tht how insecure I am towards to people. I dun understand wen the 1st place wert is wrong... we talked earlier on the phone. I thought about letting u understand the person in me. u said u wan to knw more and understand me. but then wen i let u knw, u tend to have the wrong msg.

I dint realised tht u got it all wrong till i read the blog of urs. u kept claiming i aint loving u enuf. u claim i dun giv u the whole me. not even a 50%. do u think tht love cn be a measurement? u asked me to care for u more. i wish to but i think i failed. u asked me how deep my love is there for u.. i told u we wont be candle burning from 2 ends. yes its true i am saying i wouldn tell u tht i love u as deep as sea nor higher then mountain. tht is all sweet talking. i aint gonna do tht towards u. as it will only be a saying.
u asked me if i like u... i say no.. cos i do love u. but then came to my notice u judge me. u say u were diff from all the gals i knw. but then u dint realise, now u r exactly like them. u send me into death sentence wif out seeing both understanding of situation.

i perhaps should be upset, i should be crying by now. i jst dint knw why i dint. in fact i feel dissapointed, dissapointed in u do not understand me on wert i was thinking.

if quek and ur ex can give u more on wert u wan, den i am so sorry tht i came in between, den let me be the one whom step aside. but then again i do love u. YUKI CHUN ! do u hear me?

I dunno wert m I thinking lately.... MY brain dun seems to work and yet my mentally spirit is really really low... Maybe due to sleepless nights..havent been sleeping real nice and deep for dis pass a week...

You told me tht u felt lack of love, tht u dun have faith in me. Well, if tht is so i felt better v give each other a break. to be honest, i dunno. Maybe she loves u more den I do. She gaves u everything u need to feel... U kept asking me if I love u..I couldn find the words to convince u.. I dunno perhaps I do everything by action...

I duno have to show nor say wenever I show my action. I dun think there is a need in tht. To me I think, everything jst need to be silently..

I got upset wen i noe it. but wert can i do if thts wert u think.. if the way i am loving u is wrong den let me knw wert is the right way to loves u...

yuki, i am really tired i dunno wert to do anymore......

Recently I am clueless and frustrated. I have alot of stuff to think about and yet a lil time to manage them.

I have finished my 4 eps project another 9 eps I am passing it to Syilah.. SAD but relief actually. I am jst nt really ready yet. 2 sundays i have been working my ass out.. wen can i get a real nice break and holiday??

I wan2 lay back, relax and watch TV the whole day.. listen to some songs and den get myself to the mall without need to think wat time izzit...

I finally cut my hair shorter well, its been a week ago I cut my hair..















(U) picture of me wif my new hair style
(D) Me and Cynthia (my sis)




You kept asking me if I love u? If I really do love u? u say u wan2 know, but I never know in return, Do u really love me... and able to accept the bad and good side of me... wert if I am cacat cannot walk or etc* touchwood* will u still love me?